This project explores a state of frustration, disorientation and a sense of the world’s unreality that can emerge after traumatic events such as war. I draw on my own experience, in which reality during the war felt like a dream, and time felt like a period that somehow did not exist.

In the photographs, I use self-portraits, silhouettes and the surrounding world, deliberately disrupting the familiar perception of space. Blurred and indistinct images, unusual angles, haze, and the combination of black-and-white photography with isolated fragments of colour create the feeling of a memory that cannot be seen in full.

Through this visual language, I try to convey a state of being lost and disoriented, when a person continues to live but feels detached from what is happening around them. The project also touches on the fear of death and the unpredictability of life. It is important to me to show people who have lived through a similar experience that their feelings of loneliness and unreality do not make them alone.

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